Joy in His presence.

I love Jesus. He is so good to me. And, I just want to expose the enemy for who he really is... He is a thief and a liar, and man has he been stealing my joy and faith from me lately... actually my whole life, but today. God just really picked me up and showed me that. I am strengthened! All anxiety and comparison and doubt and disbelief and fear and rejection needs OUT. I know, I've struggled with this what seems like forever, and I should be farther along, but that is also the enemy's voice and all I need to do is look at Jesus and follow His Spirit.


Ask and it will be given, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knows, the door will be opened...If you then, though you are evil know how to give good gifts... how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him! Luke 11:9-11


I want more, and I come to Him fearing that I won't hear from Him, or what He says is going to make me feel bad or something.... ha, that's the enemy. I come to Him and He gives me JOY and strengthens my spirit and tell me He loves me. He fights for me like He fought for Joshua, and made the sun and the moon stand still. Surely He fights for us!


Ahh... be blessed, Church!

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! I just wanted to post on the first day of 2012, because it's going to be such a good year! Ahhh (sigh of relief), I felt a new freedom last night as we soaked and burned for Jesus. During DTS outreach, I was having a conversation with a friend... & I think I was worrying that I wouldn't be able to travel and do things I love and desire. My friend said that even if I don't travel the world, that God would bring the world to Glendive. Well, I kind of saw that happen last night at our 8 hour Burn. God... placed this desire in some hearts. We all got together and planned with Him and partnered with Him, and put in quite a bit of prayer into this night. I've never seen anything like this happen in Glendive and ALL night, I was so thankful. I felt so near Jesus, and God just opened my eyes to the intimate ways He loves me and fulfills my deepest needs...

I grew up in the Glendive Alliance Church. Drifted Away. Came Back.. and longed for deeper community and worship. And I know those are desires of God, and He graciously gave me these desires so that I can partner with Him. He's such a good Friend and Father. I asked for a word for this year and I heard "Fulfilling Desires". I guess I'll take that :) Last night was one of those desires coming to pass... I am in Awe of my God, and I feel so much peace and joy. I cannot WAIT to know God more through the desires He has placed in me and watching Him in all His glory and wisdom bring me into deeper intimacy with Him this year and receive these acts of Love. Oh Praise Him.

I've been blind and foolish to God. I've been crying out for Him to open my eyes and He is so faithful. I know that I can ask for anything in His Name, and, believing, I will receive. Prayer for the win! We are His children; not beggars. We dance and rejoice in His Presence. He gives perfect gifts. We trust and obey with patience and perseverance. We love you Jesus! Happy New Year!!!!!

"Assuredly I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, 'Be removed and be cast into the sea,' it will be done. And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive." --Matthew 21:21-22


"Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven." --Matthew 18:3

Love & Fear

Like the new blog look? Haha, it's the best Christmas one I could find... I suppose I should just start making my own, since I have the whole Adobe Creative Suite? :)

Anyway... God is doing some deep work in me. I still feel like I've been missing something.. something big.. and I think it's Love. God's Love.. the kind that drives me to do every single thing that I do. To get up... to hang out with people, art, clothe myself.. hehe.. but seriously. I feel like I have been doing most things in my own strength, and I think that I am scared to really truly, deeply (truly lovely deeply.. lol), let go. I'm scared of something, and I don't even know what it is. I have been such a slave to fear, and it just needs to go. I walk around with so much stupid fear. I think I really fear what people think of me. But I want to overcome this fear, and I think the best way might be by prayer. Prayer is so powerful. Just look at Who you are praying to. The Author of Life. So cool! The Builder of the Unseen. Things we don't see are like physical objects to Him. Like our thoughts.. and like love.. and fear. God sees that. He sees our struggles, and He has compassion. His hearrt is not to leave us in the dust, and when we make mistakes... He wants us to run to Him, and let Him love us, and show us how to be more excellent. We can't look at our own short-comings, because that is so depressing. We MUST look at Him. Gaze, adore, behold, imagine, meditate... on Him because He is beautiful, and you become what you behold.

I'm totally preaching to myself here... I'm waiting to be transformed. Francis Chan asked his wife one day, if she had ever thought about how a caterpillar thinks.. because caterpillars just do their own thing, and take a long nap and wake up and then they can fly! And he goes on to say that that is how we should be when we walk with the Holy Spirit. Our lives as Christians should not be able to be explained any other way that "God did that, not man". And that is what I'm waiting for.

I'm so thankful that I have Jordan with me... we are one flesh, and are battling through this together as one. Learning to, anyway! :) Love you Jordan!

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. --I John 4:18

Another thing I am going through is discerning His Voice above my own and satan's, because He promises that His sheep will know His Voice.. and I know I'm His sheep! :) yay!

Psalm 29 talks about the Voice of the Lord :)